What have I become?
A shipless wreck
A song that doesn't rhyme
A stone under the sea
Tides washing over me endlessly

What happened to the world?
This bizarre new land I thought I knew
I'm lost in the wilderness with no guide to lead me home
and no direction to go
but further into the jungle of uncertainty

What do you do with a life built on lies?
Who can you trust?
Who will nurture your delicate heart,
when it seems so vulnerable and bursting at the seams

Will you sew me a new tomorrow?
Will you patch me into your quilt
and hold me close, wrap me up and keep me warm
even in the dead of night?

What's a girl to do
looking for a new skyline to find a cold and different planet
with the ice fortress you built for your own protection
to keep the world out

but you're still a part of this

I don't want to give in
yet my heart chimes on
in the rusted old belltower
and my mind races around its track
without a finish line
yet the sun continues to sparkle and shine
telling me to move along

Thoughts,
Twisting, writing snake-like over your morning cup of coffee,
Thick, black gunpowder stimulation,
Inspiration.
An idea strikes like a flash of heat lightning,
glowing outside the window on a midsummer night,
Love notes, scrawled with a delicate hand,
Sugarcoated candy cane words,
sticky-sweet with dreamful passion,
Like a gentle melody that won't leave your head
When you drive home at three in the morning.

What would you rather?
That I screech like the alarm by your bed,
The one you assault just to dream for two more minutes?
That I scratch and claw at your door, howling
like the dog you left out in the rain for someone else to find?

Words flow through my veins like a fever that won't quit,
and I want them to burn and spite and kill,
but they speak only of my love

Yet another poem, I suppose I'm thinking about school.


crush

suffocation
the invisible menace fights
like a marching band
fast under my feet
the chorus of a thousand souls
long dead and gone

fast asleep
like a baby
amidst a troubled dream
of his mother
in the stifling fog
of his life to come
sinking his toes in the sand
that hardens to cement

a cry
a lonely song
the morning dove doesn't sing
it weeps
for you
for me

bearing the weight
that stretches and strains
against your windowpane
what will you do
when the final blow
hits your door frame
and like those action films
frames crack
photo glass shatters
your calico cat
your wide-eyed family
smiling and bursting
in slow motion
on your mantlepiece
above the fireplace

did you really think
you could escape the pressure?
crush
crush
crush

So, if you haven't noticed, I don't really use livejournal. Ever. So I've decided to use it to occasionally post poems. So here are a couple poems. Enjoy.



Indulgence

sweet lemon pie
the sound of your smile
a thousand birds
couldn't paint your eyes
lips like brown sugar
hazelnut cream
all within a candy coated dream

it's so exciting just to know you're alive
wind on the dashboard
brushing my hair
drifting off to sleep
honeybee style
a chocolate covered kiss
heavenly bliss

the moon will laugh
one velvet morning
when the stars shine white
and your heart shines blue
but for now let the daffodils bloom
sleeping dogs lie
as I breathe your sunshine
a soft watermelon fire
my heart's true desire





still the world spins

stop
like that stop sign in front of you
please just stop the world
just for a moment
not like the moment before you die
no
I mean a pause
to take a deep breath
to relax
to think
just a second
a minute
an hour
a day
please?
the world just keeps spinning
days fluttering by
my head bobs like a buoy
trapped and
soaring like a kite
in confusion
please stop the world
it's too fast for me today
I'm afraid to look in the mirror
and see how long time has gripped me
I just want to smell the flowers
watch the clouds
taste a snowflake
just one moment to stop chasing
and start living
I can strive tomorrow
for now I'd just like to thrive




dandelion blues

I can't look at a zinnea
or a daisy
or even a petunia
I'll always think of dandelions
the weed that chokes nature's beauties
imitation grace
a bright smile on an ugly face
fake flowers that frightfully fight fellow friends
the dandelion just barges in the door
without invitation
unannounced
to spread further destruction with many more seeds
in an innocent fluffy flight
I used to wish on dandelions
but now I've learned my lesson:
don't wish on weeds
they'll never keep to their word
wishing on selfish weeds
now that's just absurd!

(finally) My first and "highly anticipated" entry is dedicated to a good friend...well maybe more then a friend..

I see you sitting there with your new man
Your head hung high; your shirt hung low
Smiling on a bench
Hand in hand
Ocean wind in your hair
Up the block from the shore
Madison Avenue

Your bubble gum pops in your face
Through the pink our eyes meet
They hold me in place

A forest bedazzled
Thick shroud of night
Consumed, lost
Until I see the light
A clearing draped in silver
The mood a beacon to deliver
I drop to my knees as to my surprise
A sight never meant for mortal eyes
A goddess beheld
far beyond beauty

I turn to leave must not disturb this creature
But she turns and beckons me near with a finger
Her gown drenched in the moonlight (is this a dream?)
Yet her eyes reflect sunlight (can’t be a dream)
I feel transparent, hollow, like a ghost
But she takes me by the hand
She holds me close
Her voice a whisper on the waves

“soon, my silken wings will take flight
far above the clouds, stars, planets and light”
(she trapped me with her eyes)
“I’ll fly home to you”

when? But the forest begins to fade
back on the block
back by the bay
you kiss your boyfriend
yet I feel comfort on my lips
immortal touch meant not for faded mortal skin
you turn to leave
our eyes meet once again
your whisper in my head

“soon, my silken wings will take flight
far above the clouds, stars, planets and light
(holding me so tight)
I’ll fly home to you tonight”

You lock your promise with your eyes
Then leave, your boy by your side
(was it a dream?)
seagulls lone lament in flight
(can’t be a dream)
your wings glow in the moonlight